It’s been an extremelydifficult year for me. Problems stemming from illegal immigrants undercutting me. Problems stemming from extreme weather I’m not accustomed to here in Massachusetts. Problems based on underperfomance and repair costs on my equipment. Also, problems stemming from my recent diagnosis of fibromyalgia.
For most, you dont know me and dont understand that maybe I have too little respect for medical science to have accepted this infliction. However, maybe some can remember how I complained about the heat like never before.
Fibromyalgia is an infliction which for me stemmed from something common for people with rheumatoid arthristis which is genetic and runs through my family. It is a disease that is incurable, but the symptoms can be recuced with an extreme diet regime of vegetables, fish, and basically a macro-biotic diet. I’m not opposed to this, but completing this diet involves bringing my whole family into my situation and changing their lifestyles.
Imagine yourself as a roofer that was always physically strong and seemingly indestructible and all of a sudden you wake up and you just cant do what you could but your bills say you have to. What would you do? I’ve completed the other stages of fibromyalgia, which is to enter depression and anxiety.
I’ve voted no medication. I’m going to deal with this as a man and hope I’m strong enough to deal with this. I can not become addicted to anything even if it means my life, as far as this issue is concerned. But what do I do?
Fibromyalgia is basically a disease in my educated opinion in which the arthritic pain your body experiences during the night keeps your mind occupied and you never enter the final stage of recuparitave sleep. The result is that it doesnt matter if I sleep an hour or twelve hours, it’s the same mental result. I feel like an 80 year old man. What the hell should I do? The obvious decision to me is that according to my infliction I can’t carry my partners weight which is killing me, but I can’t leave him high and dry because he’s my best friend… so what do I do?
I don’t want my life to fall apart or my partners and I’ve given too much to my dreams to let them die. Please, anyone with any experience in this help me! I’m begging from one hard working man to another.